Category child loss to suicide

Inconceivable

Losing Dalton has been brutal, no doubt about it. I didn’t get a choice. But if I had, I would’ve never willingly sacrificed him for the needs of others. In fact, I’ve spent much of the last (almost) 4 years…

My Comfort Is Dependent On My Cooperation

When my kids were little, part of my job as their mom was to comfort them when they were hurting.  Sometimes this was after a physical injury such as a bike accident or a sports injury on the basketball court…

When I’m Sinking

Recently we had a plumber install a new dishwasher in our house.  Because he is efficient , he brought a variety of tools with him to complete the job.  Without the proper tools for each step of the installation,  the…

Joy Isn’t a One-size Fits All

  When your heart has been broken or even crushed, it’s hard to think about surviving a joyous holiday season.  At  times, you may feel shamed by friends and family because you aren’t acting as joyful as they feel you…

Letting God Turn Your Pain Into Purpose

 It’s tempting to avoid spending time processing painful emotions.  Most of us tend to steer clear of pain at all costs.  But when emotions go unprocessed,  they get shoved down where they lay bubbling, ready to ooze out at unexpected…

How Can I Be Satisfied in Life When It Feels So Hard?

  Occasionally after contacting a customer service representative, I have the option to take a satisfaction survey. Recently, I read through the questions of such a survey in wonderment.  How would I respond if God handed me a similar questionnaire about…

Joy: God’s Medication for My Hurting Heart

 Opposites attract.  Or so the saying goes. In marriage, this usually translates into: Opposites are a necessity because they balance each other out.   Joy and pain can feel like opposites to a grieving heart. Opposites that I am finding have…

When God Says No

As parents, we tell our kids no or not right now a lot. Can we go to the movies tonight? Can I buy this toy? Can my friend spend the night? Can we get another dog?  There are endless reasons…

How Can This Be Good For Me?

Romans 8:28 is a tough verse to digest as a grieving mom. I’ve met others who feel the same. “And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God, and are called…